Friday, December 29, 2006

WOO HOO! My company is letting us go early today! At four thirty! (I'm normally here until 6pm..*SHUDDER*).

I'm ready to head home and do some MAJOR amounts of laundry (running out of clean underwear! doh!) and then reading Michele's workout blog inspired me to use my weights (I got two sets for Christmas...3 lb. from Mom and 5 lb. from Daryl!). I'm going to start with the three pounders since OBVIOUSLY I haven't done ANY type of weights in eternity.

And I THINK I'm going to try to go to WW tomorrow...I haven' t been in---gulp---like three weeks!
What EVER possessed me to think that planning a wedding was going to be *FUN*? There are way too many decisions to make, way too much money entailed and never, ever enough TIME. I'm a little freaked now (I must admit!!!) the more I think about it.

I think I'll probably feel better once we've settled on where the reception will be. That is obviously one of the MAIN decisions to make. *SIGH*

When does the *FUN* kick in? LOL

Thursday, December 28, 2006

I'm trying. I really and sincerely am. Maybe not as hard as I SHOULD be, but, I will. Been eating MUCH better lately and I had all intentions of going to ww this week but then I remembered Sarah is out at work...that means my lunch break is at the mercy of whoever can cover. So I couldn't go till 1pm which meant no 12:15pm ww meeting. Damn. But I am still counting the points! I've been eating good ALLLLL day long and then by dinnertime...WHACK! It all goes down the tubes. Last night it was pizza, the night before lasagna and pepperoni bread. So tonight I gotta be GOOD.

For Christmas, I got Daryl a Cooking Light cookbook which is technically a JOINT gift. It will benefit us BOTH. Anyway, I asked him if tonight he can make one of my favorite recipes that I've done of Cooking Light's...the Baked Potato Soup. It's yummy and filling and low fat but still a good winter time "comfort food". And I'm craving it! I hope he gets home early enough to make it! I also bought some broccoli crowns for us to steam and have along with it. I REALLY need to start eating more fruits and veggies!

And now...a countdown...I think it's about time. I'm planning on the wedding for sometime in March, April or May 2008 (I will narrow it down soon, I promise! lol). So I have a really good reason to whip my out-of-shape butt INTO GEAR. That gives me AT LEAST fourteen months (maybe a couple more) to do it. In the grand scheme of things...my goal at the end of those fourteen months is this:

14 months to W-DAY: Down 35 lbs.

Now that figure scares me. Can I do it? Yes. Will I? I am going to. But it still scares me cuz I'm so undisciplined. So I figure I better come up with some SHORT TERM goals in the meantime, so it doesn't seem so impossible:

By March 2007: Down 10 lbs.
By June 2007: Down 20 lbs.
By September/October 1007: Down 30 lbs.
By December 2007: Down 35 lbs.

That means December '07 through March '08 I will have to MAINTAIN my loss. God, I hope I can do this!!! WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

It's official....



I am ENGAGED!!!


I love my man. :-)

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I'm turning into a big, fat Christmas cookie. Ugh.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Aren't my girls so stinkin' CUTE?!?! I love when they lay together like this...becuz it almost NEVER happens...Bailey likes her space. (she's kinda uppity like that, LOL)...too adorable.
Sheesh. It's the thought that counts, right??? I KNOW that phrase and I TRY to live by it, but, I HATE the cheap-o feeling I get when someone gives me a gift that is worth more than what I gave THEM! There is a girl I work with...I don't think we've EVER hung out together outside of work (maybe once?). We DO exchange gifts for birthday and xmas but usually the xmas gifts are "smaller".

Anyway, Christmas is hard. I have so many people to buy for and I really want to get nice things for my friends (my friends OUTSIDE of work) and stuff that they enjoy...so that means skimping a little on a coworker-friend. Which brings me to my point. I got this co-worker a (the SMALLEST size) Yankee candle jar candle...she got me a twenty dollar gift card for Old Navy! I did not expect that! I feel guilty and cheap! I KNOW it's the thought that counts, but damn, I suck. :-(

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

I'm very *mopey* (for lack of a better word) today.

I know part of it is from this damn "cold" or whatever that is hanging on...not fully HERE but not fully gone. And it is making me feel SO tired. Plus that damn Aunt FLO is visiting...and bringing with her a boatload of cramps.

But on top of the physical stuff I think I'm just feeling run down emotionally, mentally, whatever. I know the holidays have a habit of doing that...and also with that, my 30th birthday. I'm NOT bummed about turning 30, anymore. No, it's not that. I think I am most upset cuz my Dad couldn't BE here for such a momentous birthday. To think, his "chicky babe" just turned THIRTY YEARS OLD. His "baby". I really would have loved to shared my day with him. And HIS birthday was December 6th, six days before mine. He would have been 56. My "old man" would have been 56. Wow. Hard to believe that he's been gone almost *FIVE* years. This will be mine, Mom and Sean's fifth Christmas WITHOUT him. *SIGH*

But on a GOOD note, I had the BEST 30th Surprise Birthday party thrown for me this past weekend!!! I can't believe Daryl was able to keep this secret...I'm sure he was bursting at the seams since late November when he began planning it! That silly boy. It's things like this that just reinforce what he means to me and how happy he makes me. But moreso it's the LITTLE things he does every single day that do that for me. I really, really wish Dad could have met him.

Friday, December 15, 2006

...GONE! (in case you are wondering....that was my last shot as a 20-something-year-old!)
...going....
Going.....

Thursday, November 30, 2006

This sounds about right...LOL

You Are: 70% Dog, 30% Cat

You and dogs definitely have a lot in common.
You're both goofy, happy, and content with the small things in life.
However, you're definitely not as needy as the average dog. You need your down time occasionally.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Oh. My. God.

I'm turning THIRTY in a little over two weeks.

Not happy about it.

Can you tell?

Monday, November 13, 2006

Grrrrr! Why do people get SO DAMN sensitive at work? I'm frustrated!!!

Let me explain...myself and Sarah at work cover the phones so when someone else in the building is going into a meeting, leaving, etc. they tell us. WELL do you know how you get when you are in the middle of a heated conversation about something and you get interrupted? You might have a confused expression on your face? Well, this is what happened: I was in the middle of telling Sarah some family stuff that happened this weekend, stuff that sorta stressed me out, so we had tunnel-vision and we were not really paying attention to people walking by us. I was LITERALLY trying not to cry as I told my story. And then this coworker came up and stepped in between us, looked back and forth to each of us, and said she was going into a meeting, blah, blah, blah. Fine. We acknowledged her and she turned away so we went back to our conversation.

Then just a few minutes ago, my phone beeps (someone in-house buzzing me) and it's this same coworker asking if Sarah and I had a problem and that she sensed some annoyance or defensiveness from us earlier. What?!?!?!??! I was like, "Uh, you caught us off guard, we were just in the middle of an intense conversation. If we came OFF like that, I apologize." But now I'm steamed! WHY should I have to apologize becuz SOMEONE ELSE is reading into a freaking FACIAL expression on one of our faces and surmising what she THINKS it means? Isn't that HER issue? Not ours?

Grrrr...days like this REALLY make me wish I didn't work in an office.

Thursday, October 12, 2006



A couple more...aaaaahhhhh...wish I was back there....


Some pictures from Daryl's stepdad's apple orchard where him and D's Mom live in upper state NY...it's gorgeous. D and I stayed there last weekend and had a nice and much-needed relaxing couple days.
I'm tired, unfocused. CERTAINLY not motivated. And today feels like Friday. But it's not. Bummer.

Anyway, not much new going on other than the same 'ol family drama...my grandmother is still in the rehab hospital and it's been H-E-L-L. I don't know if this is possible or not BUT it appears that she is having some lasting effects from the general anesthesia she received before her hip replacement operation. Here it is, a week later, and she's still having strange "episodes" every now and then. (ie. thinking that a certain nurse is out to "get" her, that she was "kidnapped and hypnotized" while at Milford Hospital, etc, etc.) Thankfully, she'll be going home Saturday morning but I must admit, I'm alittle worried about her PHYSICALLY in that case. Her sons are not the most reliable and my mother is not the strongest person and obviously Grammie will still need a little assistance moving around. I hope it goes well for her!

And then there is the A.J. issue...my aunt and uncle went/go to court today and I THINK it's to finalize their divorce and possibly the custody arrangement for A.J. I'm a little worried about that. I haven't seen him in so long and I keep leaving his mom messages but have not heard back. I miss that little cutie pie. *SIGH*

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Yay! Good news! My grandmother had her surgery yesterday and it went well. So far so good. She's going to be in a lot of pain now and in the hospital for a couple of days. My mom and I are bringing her home on Thursday. I took the day off from work to spend some quality time with the two of them. We can get Grammie situated and comfortable at home (as comfortable as possible anyway) and do some grandmother-mother-granddaughter bonding. :-)

Not much else new. Just busy-busy with work and "stuff" on the weekends. There never seems to be enough TIME, ya know? I just sat down with my coworker (my coverage) to plan out the remainder of our time off this year. I was excited to find out I still have about 6 or 7 days left to use! Three of those days I can carry over to next year which is cool. And then I am taking off the day BEFORE Thanksgiving (I'm cooking this year so I'll need that extra day!) and then we get Thanksgiving day and the day after off here, so I took off the next Monday and Tuesday. So I'll have a good seven days straight with no work. WOO HOO! ;-) I also took off December 13th, the day AFTER my birthday, cuz Daryl and I are planning on making a day of it in NYC. Hey, it's my 30th birthday, I wanna do something fun and different! :-) I'm not taking off the actual DAY of my birthday unfortunately becuz my company Christmas/Holiday Party is that night of the 12th. We will probably only stay for appetizers cuz I really don't want to spend my birthday at a work function, you know? Maybe we'll do dinner or something....

...and WOW! I can't believe it's October already! Time is just starting to FLY by. I know this always happens during this time of year. I'm just SO glad I started my Christmas shopping already. :-) Haven't made a HUGE dent in it yet, but I've started!!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

I've got Death on the brain.

*SIGH* I've literally made myself sick over it (stomach ache AND a head ache today). My grandmother is going in for her hip replacement surgery next week. It's just reminding me that she is vulnerable, that she is human, that no one lives forever. I used to live in a world of denial...a world where, for the most part, people I knew just DIDN'T die. (other than my grandmother who passed when I was 13, I had not really experienced "death"). Then as an adult of 24 years, my grandfather died. Well, it was a shock (not expected, as he was only in his 60's at the time) but still, it's your grandfather. It's upsetting. And yet, you KNOW you will see your grandparents die. You know that, right?

Then Dad got sick. Terminally. I still can't describe to anyone, not even in writing, the way my insides felt when he said, "April, I have cancer." I can try to describe it, I guess: It's partially that feeling you get at a fair/carnival on the ride where the floor drops out from beneath you and literally, your stomach plunges. It's the feeling of nausea, whether from alcohol or illness, and the subsequant puking afterwards--that pull and heave of your insides. It's a pain in your heart--like the feeling of a sharp-tipped arrow piercing the most tender, the most fragile, part of your whole body. Like the pain of stepping barefoot on shards of glass. It's kinda like that--and NOTHING like that. Do you get me? It's indescribeable.

And then Dad died. And that world of mine was in a serious upheaval, despite the fact that we knew Death was coming. It had already tap, tap, tapped at his door and it was just a matter of time before Dad had finally opened it wide. And the day Death took him from us, it was a beautiful day. Balmy, the sun a glorious lemon-yellow orb in the bluest of skies, no clouds to mar the beauty of it. Like a final slap in the face, that's what that weather was. Where were the angry clouds? The dark, raging purple-tinged skies? Where was the downpour, the heavy pounding of rain like tears upon our cheeks?

Okay, I'm totally digressing as I feel it all over again. What started this whole speech is that I'm worried about my mother. Her health continues it's slow yet steady decline. Despite the fact that I have NO IDEA when her time will be, I worry it will come sooner than I am mentally prepared for. Mom is fifty three years old. She's already outlived Dad, who died at fifty one, four years ago. I want her to last another ten, twenty years. Can I have that? Please? I want her to see me get married, to fill in for Daddy who can't walk me down the aisle. I want my mother to see her grandchildren being born, growing, hear them call her "Nana". Something that was taken from my own father. Before he died, Dad told me he was sorry he would never get to hold his grandchild in his arms. Is that too much to ask for my mother? Am I being selfish for wanting this when some people don't have this at all?

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Yuck...I've got something on my eyeball! It's bothering me. I'm trying to create some tears to flush out whatever it is. Tell me something SAD....

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Holy Crap. Ever had a bad day NOT becuz one big major thing happened, but, moreso becuz a bunch of little itty bitty things smooshed together to make your day hell? Today is one of those days! I'm not going to mention EVERYTHING that has irritated me today but let me just give you an example. Here was my lunchbreak today:

I had to run out and get lunch today cuz (1) I have no food at home and (2) today of all days I was absolutely RAVENOUS. Shaking with hunger. On the way out on the DAMN Berlin Turnpike, I get stuck in traffic from all the construction (AND asshole drivers) on the road. I'm silently mother-f'ing everyone until ten minutes later, I make it to the ATM. Wait in line for two cars ahead of me, finally, my turn. Put card in machine. Get message, "This ATM is temporarily out of service." GOD DAMN. So I turned myself around and went back OUT onto the stinkin' turnpike and head up to...ugh...McDonald's. I had originally told myself I was going to get a salad but aggravation (spurred on by the old bitch in the Ram truck spitting out diesel fumes who cut me OFF) is raging in me and I said, "Screw it! I want a cheeseburger and a milkshake!!!" So I waste ANOTHER ten minutes driving to McDonald's, which is OFF the turnpike, thank god, this time NOT so silently mother f'ing my fellow drivers. I go to turn INTO the lot and lo and behold the sign: CLOSED FOR RENOVATIONS. Now, at this point, I was on the phone with my mother and a string of obscenities flew from my mouth vulgar enough to make a truck driver proud. And then, as I turned back onto Kitts Lane (where I work) I burst into tears (keep in mind that I'm EXCEPTIONALLY emotional and moody today). My mom was like, "April, just go to Burger King or something." I refused at that point to go back onto the turnpike and said, "Screw it (didnt' I already say screw it?!?!) I'm going to Starbucks to get my Pumpkin Spice Latte and I'll get something bad to eat there!" So off I went, to Starbucks in the center of Newington, mother f'ing the world about how much gas I was wasting. I got there and ordered my Pumpkin Spice Latte--the only thing at this point to cheer me up--and a toffee almond bar (something I NORMALLY would say NO to) and then as an after thought, some nuts cuz I knew without protein I would continue shaking. I got back into the truck to drive, trying to ignore the rest of the assholes on the road, thinking, "Who cares! I got my latte!" I put it to my lips and took a long, savoring swig and---what the HELL!?!?!?? It was a plain god damned latte! Emotional April I was, my eyes welled up AGAIN and I started swearing like a truck driver AGAIN!!! Needless to say, my lunch break was pretty much OVER by this point so I drank my disgusting tasteless latte and went back to work, shaking like a leaf.

DAMN IT.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Well, I did it.

I emailed Admissions at SJC and asked some questions and she responded and said there is an Open House this October 21st if I was interested in attending. So I registered for it today! Eek! I'm nervous.

I don't know what I'm doing. Will anything comes out of this? Who knows.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Wow. I just read an amazing book. "The World According to Garp" by John Irving. It's QUITE an older novel and I am probably sounding behind the times for JUST NOW reading it, but it was well worth the wait.

It was so "out there" and the plot twisted so much, that I was literally captivated and had trouble putting it down quite a few times. That John Irving...man his brain must be warped. LOL I only hope I can write such a different, whacky, enthralling novel someday!
Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks...yup, today's a good day...

Friday, September 15, 2006

*SIGH* I know I've spoken about this before...maybe even on this blog here...the school-bug is back in my head. I've thought on and off for like the past two years about going back to school. It's something I toss around in my head but never really sat down to wrap my brain around. I'm not satisfied with my job (I've been doing the same TYPE of job for about ten years, even though it's been at different companies) and feel that there is so much more I could be doing with myself. I could be doing a job--wait, a career--where I feel like I'm making a difference, where I feel like I'm GOING somewhere, instead of just standing still, or running in place.

Well, Stacey has now put it back into my head. She started her classes this term (I think she said she's going to SJC) and so far has been enjoying it. She said on the way home from class last night she was thinking about ME and how she knows I would enjoy this too, this opportunity to challenge and stimulate my mind. I also feel like my writing has definitely taken a back-burner lately so maybe I DO need some stimulation in that department. Even though my writing is nothing but a hobby for me right now, whose to say it couldn't also be part of a career someday?
I really would hate to look back at my life and think "Oh, if only..."...I don't ever want to feel like that, ya know? Unfortunately I'm not filthy stinkin' rich and I WILL have to work to live. Money does not grow on my tree, damnit. So, knowing that, why can't my work be something I ENJOY doing? Something I WANT to do until I retire?

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Mistakes.

People make them. Shit Happens (that's the best bumper sticker ever made, in my opinion). As long as it's not the end of the world, or someone DYING as a result...GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's what I wanted to tell a teacher here. No, I wasn't the one who MADE the mistake but the mistake impacted part of my job for today and the teacher of the clinic class was freaking out. I wanted to tell him to "CHILL OUT BUDDY. IT WILL BE OKAY."

Sheesh. Like I said previously, Shit Happens.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I really, really hate when people say one thing and do another, or they don't "follow through" with what they promised...I know that sounds really generic but I'm just leaving it at that. *GGGGRRRRRRRR* I'm cranky.
Okay, I know I frequently talk about my weight so I'm sorry if it bores you or sounds repetitive (if so, stop reading now! LOL), but I swear it's like a never-ending battle! It stresses me out! I am tired of feeling so damn pudgy and out of shape...

...on a good note, I DID go to the gym last night. And I did feel great afterwards. That should be my incentive, right? To make myself FEEL better! I guess I'll feel more inspired once I lose this stagnant ten pounds that is clinging to me like an overboard person clinging to the life raft. I've been playing with this same ten pounds, up and down, up and down, for quite a few months now. I'm ready to make it go away--permanantly!!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

This blogsite must be on a different time zone or something cuz I just noticed some of my past blogs...7:11am etc. Those are SO incorrect! There is no way in HELL I'm bloggin' at seven in the morning when I don't roll outta bed in the morning until 7:30am! LOL I don't get in to work until 9:15am! So no blog would be that early.

Phew! I'm ready for bed now. ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
So I think I'm going to have a hard time getting into football.

I wanted to "broaden my horizons" and try to become interested in a sport this year. (Anyone who knows me knows how much I am NOT into sports!) Anyway, after some searching, I decided to focus on football (I don't care for basketball, softball or hockey). Learning about the game itself is not going to be a problem, nor is it going to be a problem for me to become interested in it. I already am. The games seem more exciting to me than other sports, more action packed and quick to change on a dime.

The PROBLEM is the fact that I have a hard time sitting still long enough to WATCH it! LOL I feel like there is so much I can be doing around the house that to sit on my tush, watching the game, feels like such I am wasting valuable time! I watched about a quarter of the Patriots game yesterday before I felt the itch in my fingertips...the housework itch! LOL I soon found myself doing laundry, cleaning the computer room from top to bottom, washing dishes in the kitchen...so I missed the rest of the game! Sheesh!

Friday, September 08, 2006

Ugh. I feel extremely bloated.

Damn period.

Damn Mexican food for lunch.

Is it nap time yet?????

Thursday, September 07, 2006

So, I'm trying to locate a friend I lost touch with years ago, Naomi Ingraham, and ALL I want is an email address but it's impossible to find! I keep finding multiple phone and home addresses but I have NO idea which one is hers, or if it's current. This is annoying! The internet is just TOO big sometimes when looking for something or someone so specific!

Anyway, last I knew, she lived in Branford, so I found a Branford address that I'm going to assume (hope!) is hers. I'm going to send her a letter and see what happens! :-)

Wednesday, September 06, 2006



And here are a couple more....



Oh, and almost forgot, here are a couple pictures from my camping trip in New Hampshire. I had a BLAST! We might go back again for the foliage (not camping) and maybe stay overnight. I really love New Hampshire!
I've only been at work at the MOST, an hour. And already I am tired of it.

This day is totally gonna suck. :-(

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

I am so, so very sad by this. :-(

John text messaged me a link to an article about it yesterday. I always loved Steve Irwin and used to watch the Crocodile Hunter like CRAZY about two years ago...it was almost an obsession and I used to try to tape the show if I was going to miss it. I'm not sure what the exact pull for me was, granted I LOVE animals and watching shows about them, but it was also, I think, Steve's enthusiasm for them and his love for them (even the snakes! eek!) which I found so captivating. And it was just so enthralling to watch him, a master at his game, a man who definitely knew his stuff. I do remember saying, "God, if he dies early, this will probably be the way he'll go." But I honestly didn't think he WOULD die. He seemed invincible!

Now, you're probably thinking, "Why is she so upset? It's not like she KNEW him or anything." I think hearing about Steve Irwin's death just brings closer to home for me, the reality of how short and precious life really is. It can be gone in an instant. So many things this year and last year have been reinforcing that in my brain. I told myself to start ENJOYING my life and LIVING it, instead of constantly wondering what lays ahead for me and what I "shoulda, coulda, woulda" been doing in my life. If there is a "good" point to any sad story like Steve's, it's that I fully believe he LIVED every day of his 44-year life. He had a wonderful family he loved, a passion for a "job" and did what he enjoyed every single day.

I am vowing to myself to use that as an example and stop the endless worrying about the material things (bills, houses, jobs, etc.) and concentrate more on having FUN and enjoying and loving the people in my life now. :-) It's a ride that I fully intend to enjoy and relish in, every dip, twist and turn that is coming my way....

Thursday, August 31, 2006

This is your White Mountains New Hampshire Meteorologist, April, to report that Ernesto is not throwing as big of a wrench into the mix as originally anticipated. :-) I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

So far, this is what the weekend forecast, where I'll be, looks like:

Friday-Mostly Sunny, high of 66 and low of 44 degrees.

Saturday-40% chance of of PM showers, high of 63 and low of 48 degrees.

Sunday-60% chance of rain, high of 69 and low of 53 degrees.

Monday-Mostly cloudy, high of 69 and low of 53 degrees.

So, as you can see, this is ENTIRELY do-able now. I definitely can HANDLE the slight showers/rain (not that I want it) but what I could not handle was the thought of DOWNPOURS (remember Mt. Monadnock, Michele? *SHIVER*).

Tonight I have a bunch of stuff to do. Gotta finish up laundry and wash the dishes in the sink, pack up the rest of my clothes and camping gear and stack it in the living room for the morning, and also run to the grocery store to get the rest of the camping staples we'll be eating. :-) I'm so excited! And I HOPE it's not too muddy to do some fun hiking up there!!!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

I want to throw a tantrum. Really.

God damned Ernesto is gonna screw up my weekend camping plans! It's now supposed to rain (where we'll be in NH) Sunday during the day and Monday. I just want to cry. This is the SECOND TIME I've attempted to go camping (before that I hadn't gone in FOUR YEARS!) and that time was disastrous weather-wise, too! Remember the 12 days of rain we had last October? That's during the time I was in NH. Ugh.

And then as if that isn't bad enough, the other couple who was supposed to come with us, CAN'T! So now there is this second site already paid for (two of the three nights) and available but we asked a few other couples we're friends with and no one is able to come. I kinda knew it was a long shot being last minute, and a holiday weekend, but I was hoping we could find SOMEONE else to go! Grrrrrr!

Why do all my plans go to shit???????????????????????????/

Friday, August 25, 2006

I'm excited! A week from today (hopefully MINUS the rain!) I will be on my way to the White Mountains in New Hampshire! Going camping with Daryl and the doggies and meeting up there with Crystal, her hubby Jimmy and their new dog, Harley. I've been looking forward to this trip for quite some time...I love camping and have only been once in about four years. So this trip is LONG awaited.

This week I gotta get stuff together (tent, sleeping bags, air mattresses, etc.) and later in the week I'll throw together the rest of the stuff I need into our backpacks. I'm bringing my camel bak (sp?) and hiking boots too cuz we plan on doing some hiking! We're staying at a regular campground so YIPPY! Showers! Toilets! Eventually I WOULD like to try the whole "roughing-it" camping experience...just not yet. LOL Plus this campground has a dog kennel that charges only $2/hour per pup so THAT is a plus, in case we wanna do some sight seeing or tourist-y things in the nearby gift shops. ;-) Later this week, I'm going to do my SUN-Dance to insure we get great weather!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Almost there!!

And look at the progress, partially through....
This was the beginning path that started the downfall of....BUSH! (and no, I'm not talking the president. Darn. LOL)
This was the mess that USED to be in my yard...it was a jungle!

Monday, August 14, 2006

I. AM. EXHAUSTED.

But quite happy. :-) Daryl and I ripped down those HORRENDOUS over-grown monstrosity of bushes and trees in our backyard!! I can't BELIEVE how much it opens up (makes it so much larger!) the backyard. I love it. I have the biggest yard in the neighborhood. :-) Granted, there is still MUCH more work to do (i.e. clearing out all the downed brush, raking the dirt and pulling out all the stumps, burning the extra wood, and finally, planting grass, phew!). It's definitely a work in progress.

And on the INSIDE of the house, much work too. Daryl's next project (with me as his assistant! LOL) is to put in the plenoms (have no idea how to spell that word) and vents in the floor for our new furnace. I'll be psyched to have heat in each room, as opposed to just what it used to be, those damn grates in the floor. And I LOVE the fact that those grates are gone. Right now you can see the wood but I don't care. All in due time, right? So, after the furnace is complete, we'll be sanding the walls. I have the paint chip on the wall that we'll be painting the living room and hallway walls. And once THAT is finally accomplished, we can install the new carpet! What a difference a new carpet will make! I HATE the ugly,stained stuff that is down now!

Progress, progress! :-)

Oh, and I will post pics tomorrow of what we're doing in the yard....

Monday, August 07, 2006

I'm pretty darn proud of myself lately. First of all, I lost a pound last week. I know THAT is not monumental or anything, but it's good to lose SOMETHING. :-)

Also, I worked out both Friday night after work AND Saturday morning. Me, working out on the weekends, is usually almost unheard of! LOL I also cleaned NON-STOP Sunday probably for a good four or five hours. I'm sure I burned some calories there!

I pigged out a LITTLE bit this weekend but not in a major way. Friday night I had homemade cheese fries for dinner...nice, right? Saturday I ate good pretty much all day. Then yesterday, Sunday, I went out for breakfast and had about 1/2 a Farmer's omellet and 1.5 pieces of wheat toast and 3 pieces of bacon. Then I didn't eat again until dinner when we went out to eat at this yummy place in Manchester called Smokey Bones. I had a beer and then some spinach/artichoke dip with toasted pitas, and for dinner pulled pork w/barbecue sauce, mashed potatoes and steamed green beans, with a piece of garlic toast. So damn good! But that means that TODAY I'm back on track. ;-)

Thursday, August 03, 2006

CHEETOS....CHOCOLATE...CHEETOS...CHOCOLATE...

...that's what I'm craving. AND in that order. I actually just went and ate a huge fruit salad figuring that would take my mind off of it.

IT DIDN'T!!! ARGH!!!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006



This is freaking hilarious, in my opinion. Daryl was "attacked" by a cloud of soot yesterday at work....check out the line on his wrist (where his rubber glove covered his hand) and just how black he got! LOL Granted, HE didn't think it was hilarious!

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

I joined a gym last night. It's twenty bucks a month...not bad.

I went last night with Crystal and we're going again tonight. I am not REALLY a gym-person but I need something so that I won't use the excuse, "Oh I can't walk/hike/bike/whatever becuz the weather is too hot/wet/cold/crappy." This way, I will have NO EXCUSES. ;-)

Friday, July 28, 2006

"skillet limp"


Okaaaaaaaay...I read Michele's blog today about those silly spam emails that we all get...and I was laughing at her post, thinking of the weird ones I've gotten lately. One at work said "As the paperclip began to bend, she grabbed his bloody hand and ran up the driveway." WHAAAAAT?


And then today I opened up my email and lo and behold, another silly spam. This one titled, "skillet limp"! LOL What the heck is "skillet limp"?
Slightly bummed. Went to Super Walmart (should be called GHETTO Walmart though...ugh) in Wallingford last night...they didn't have ANY stinkin' Coleman tents! Just some other brand I've never heard of. What's up with that?!?!?

So I think we're just going to actually order it right from the website. Might be the easiest way, instead of searching all the area Walmarts, ya know?

T.G.I.F.!!!!! I'm so glad it's Friday. This has been a LOOOOOOONG week! And I'm curious to see if I lost another 2 lbs. this week. Of course, I'd be happy with ANY loss, I suppose, (and no gain!). Stay tuned!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Oh...and I walked for the 2nd night in a row, last night! :-) So three days in a row now of exercise. I hope to keep it up!

On a BAD note, I stuffed my face with pizza last night. :-( Granted, that was the only "bad" thing I ate. The problem was--I ate lunch too early, ran out of fruit for snacks, and by the time I was ready to head home from work--I was ravenous! Daryl was in the same boat, so we both went a little crazy with the pizza.

Tonight I hope to be MUUUUUUCH better! ;-)
I think this is the TENT I want to get for camping...pretty cool, huh??? ;-)

Whatever we do end up getting needs to be big enough for two adults (me and Daryl!) and the two doggies with their crates, plus our "stuff". I liked this one AND the good thing is, Walmart has it for a pretty good price! (It's made exclusively by Coleman for Walmart).


What do you think?

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

I went swimming last night! I always forget, each year, JUST how much I love swimming...until I find myself in a pool again! ;-) Crystal and I have been trying to exercise more lately so we had decided to start walking on a regular basis. But since it's been so yucky and hot, we've gone swimming twice, instead, at her mom's inground pool. I LOVE swimming! It's probably one of my favorite forms of exercise. I just did laps, freestyle, didn't push myself but kept going. I felt so refreshed afterwards and pleasantly tired.

Tonight we will probably either just walk, OR walk and swim. Crystal's neighbors are away and told her she can use the pool all this week while they're gone. SO maybe we'll walk first and then cool off in the pool? :-)

Monday, July 24, 2006

Boy, am I tired. What a crazy-busy weekend.

Friday Night: Emotionally exhausting night. 'Nuff said.

Saturday: TONS of cleaning and shopping to prepare for my family picnic on Sunday. Ended up, in the craziness, only eating ONCE the whole day (and pizza, at that)! Then in the evening I went out to Sabbat's for a drink with Kathleen which morphed into two drinks (her brother John paid for the 2nd one thankfully, cuz I'm broke! I kinda forced him into paying! LOL). I was home and in bed by 11:30-ish p.m.

Sunday: Up early and MORE cleaning. Set up the awning/screenhouse thingie that Sandy gave me (I'm bringing it with us when we go camping too!) cuz it totally looked like rain. AND the forecast said 70% chance of t-storms. So I was not a happy camper, thinking I'd have to cram everyone into my tiny house! Daryl told me not to worry, but hey, I'm a woman--I worried! LOL And thankfully, the weather ended up being GREAT! Cool, barely humid, the sun finally peeked out...perfect! The puppies were wild cuz Daryls' cousin, Liz, brought her one-year old half pit bull half bull mastiff puppy. They were having a great time! LOL And all in all, despite the stress (and my momentary bout of tears to April #2 mid-day) I had a fantastic day! The picnic was a huge success! We did a fire in the pit after mostly everyone left...that was totally worth it and a nice relaxing way to end the day. :-)

Oh! And even better news...I lost another two pounds! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

I'm so excited!!! In about an hour I'm going to make a phone call and make reservations for camping Labor Day weekend! I'm totally psyched cuz, other than mine and Michele's DISASTROUS camping expedition last October (damn rain ruined our trip. >:-( See my October post), I have not been camping in years! And I absolutely positively LOVE going.

So, me and Daryl and Crystal and Jimmy (and possibly Jimmy's son, Jacob) will be going September 1st through September 4th. And the other cool thing, not only can we bring the doggies with us, BUT, this campground has a doggie kennel (for $2.00 per hour per dog) if we decided to go somewhere we couldn't bring the pups with us! So having that option is exceptionally cool, if we wanna check out some gift shops etc... :-)

Check out where we're going!!!! I feel like a kid, getting this excited to go! LOL

Monday, July 17, 2006

THe temperature in my office EIGHTY TWO DEGREES....the thermostat is set at SEVENTY TWO DEGREES. This is the norm in my office. I even adjusted the thermostat to SIXTY EIGHT hoping that would help...NADA.

SOMEBODY PLEASE SHOOT ME NOW.

Oh! On a GOOD note, I lost two and a half pounds this past week!!! Yay, me! I hope this keeps me motivated! I need it!

Friday, July 14, 2006

Mmmmm...I LOVE fruit salad...

Thursday, July 13, 2006

You know what I figured out? I can eat great and healthy all day at work...but...come 6:30pm when I walk through the door at home, all hell breaks loose!

It's not necessarily that I eat *BAD* things, just I seem to eat an EXCESS of whatever is for dinner. I've come to the conclusion that I REALLY need to start eating an afternoon snack again, so that I don't come home from work ravenous. Or maybe incorporate a little more protein in my diet.

Here is an example of my day:

Breakfast:
Either Honey Bunches of Oats cereal w/1% milk and fresh blueberries OR
2 low fat Nutri-grain eggo waffles w/strawberries and syrup

Snack:
Mixed fruit w/ a little lite coolwhip OR 100-calorie Oreo Snack Bag OR an apple

Lunch:
Amy's Burrito or a Smart One meal and a piece of fruit (most likely an apple)

Dinner:
Pork chop, corn on the cob, broccoli OR
pasta and meat sauce, broccoli, w/piece of garlic bread

So, I can definitely see the potential to get some more protein in there!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Okay, I'm putting this in print to hold myself accountable! I'm vowing to get back into shape. Everyone around me is either "dieting", exercising, or doing SOMETHING right...so it's been the little shove in the back that I need to get off my lazy ASS and try to take better care of myself!

First and foremost--FOOD. I did a big grocery shopping over the weekend and loaded up on lots of fruits, some veggies (waiting patiently for excess veggies in my garden to finish growing) and low fat snack/meal stuff. I have to admit, I'm been feeling RAVENOUS lately. It's rough going trying to retrain yourself to figure out if it's tummy-hunger or head-hunger. More often than not, I'm not REALLY hungry, I only THINK I need to eat cuz I'm bored, tired, whatever. How annoying, right?

Secondly--EXERCISE. I need to do cardio. I need it but I have yet to start doing it. Ugh. I DID start up doing my usual routine of squats, lunges and abs 3x a week. And Crystal has agreed to walk the dogs with me about 3x a week, starting Saturday when she gets back from her vacation. So now once I incorporate that cardio in there--I'll be golden!!

My goal--to lose 25-30 lbs. and I would LIKE to have it gone (poof!) before the holidays (Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years...). WISH ME LUCK!!!

Monday, July 10, 2006

I swear, I have a knot in my left calf the size of a damn golf ball. OUCH!

Friday, July 07, 2006



Had a great time last weekend in Maine...Daryl and I can't wait to go visit Carsa, Allen and Braeden again! We stuffed our faces, drank NUMEROUS margaritas (as well as a couple of shots) and went swimming in their new pool. It was JUST the relaxing, fun weekend I needed!

So I'm including two photos...one of me and tipsy Carsa in the pool...and the other of Daryl (the lumberjack!) chopping wood for our fire! LOL





Thursday, June 29, 2006


Daisy's Big Adventure...

Once upon a time there was a dog named Daisy. Daisy was a one and half year old Jack-Rat. What is a Jack-Rat, you say? Half Jack Russell Terrier and half Rat Terrier. That equates to 100% TERROR.

Daisy was a very feisty girl, and prone to ignoring her master's commands. She believed herself to be a long-lost relative of the Great Houdini. She was a mastermind when it came to the art of the great escapes.

One humid, over-cast afternoon in June , little Daisy decided to plan the MASTER of all escapes. When her Daddy was not looking, she slithered, snake-like, underneath the mass of over-grown bushes in her back yard. She proceeded to crawl to the back of the bush when suddenly--EUREKA! Daisy spotted a "hole" in the fence behind the bush.

Like a rocket, she shot from the bushes and took off running, kicking up tufts of grass behind her like clouds of exhaust from a noisy car. Daisy ran and ran, and from behind her, she could hear the sounds of heavy breathing, sneaker-clad feet slap-slapping the sidewalk, and shouts of, "Daisy! Daisy!"

It was her Daddy!

"Oh no! I'm going to be in BIG trouble!" She thought frantically. She paused mid-flight. Should she stop? Go back to Daddy? Or keep running?

GO! Her brain shouted and off she zoomed, like a marathon runner.

Hours passed and darkness fell upon little Daisy like a cloak she longed to throw off. She misseed her Mommy, her Daddy and her furry brother, Tucker. She was hungry and chilly...and scared!

The wind beganto howl around her and large, fat droplets of rain splashed on the pavement and grass surrounding Daisy. She huddled uncertainly beneath a bush, her ears pricked for the first sound of danger, nostrils flared to pick up a familiar scent.

It was a long, wet, lonely night.

Morning broke and with it, more rain. Daisy's black and white fur, mottled like a cow's, was soaked and plastered to her pink skin. She smelled horribly from her perch in random tufts of grass. Her body was achey and weary and wanted nothing more than the comfort of her blankets and her home.

Suddenly, a noise startled little Daisy from her half-slumber. A strange human was standing over her , speaking. Daisy cowered under the stranger's stare, very much afraid. Who was this stranger? Was she going to hurt her?

A man appeared suddenly behind the lady and crept gently over to Daisy, picking her up in his large dry hands. She was shaking like leaf in a breeze, as the rain continued to pelt down on them.

The man carried Daisy inside and glanced quickly at the tag on her pink collar. He spoke softly into the telephone and then went to sit outside.

Daisy was still frightened, but somewhat relieved as well. Her wild flight was now over.

And just as suddenly, there was a familiar sound that perked her pointy ears and sped up the already frantic thumping of her heart. That truck driving down the street...she knew that truck!

She begins to whimper joyously at the human who emerged from the big red truck, all smiles.

It was her Mommy! Saved by her Mommy!

Hours later, Daisy was warm and dry, after a nice long bath. Her belly was full of good treats, including people food she wasn't normally allowed to eat.

She perched happily on the living room chair of my house, watching her Mommy and her brother, Tucker, play. She was perfectly content to watch. She'd had MORE than enough action the past 24 hours.

Daisy settled into the warm and comforting embrace of her Mommy and, nestled on her back, all four legs sticking up in the air, she fell fast asleep. Her dreams were pleasant that night and from then on.

It was great to be home...

THE END


Friday, June 09, 2006


Awwww....me getting to hold little Julia.


I love babies!!! :-)



Wednesday, June 07, 2006



Congrats to Brian and Sarah on the birth of baby, Julia!!! June 6, 2006 at 7:22 p.m. Julia entered the world, weighing in at eight pounds (I think--->) two ounces!! Going to see her tonight so more photos to come!!! :-)



Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Sarah is in the hospital!!!!!!!!!

She had contractions all night...and by five a.m. this morning (when she left for hospital) they were 4-5 minutes apart.

I can't WAIT to hear some news!!! I'm going to be anxious all day....

Monday, June 05, 2006

I'm so excited! Sarah is having contractions! She's been having them since this afternoon...her doctor sent her home since they were not close together and told her that when they are five minutes apart for at least an hour, she is to call them.

When I talked to her around quarter to five she had had the closest ones so far...4:18, 4:36, 4:41. I'm hoping she has the baby either either late tonight or early tomorrow morning! It's a possibility! Of course what SUCKS is that I have company coming over tomorrow evening so I won't get to go see the baby then. :-( I'm bummed about that!!!!! Unless I can reschedule my company...I'm going to wait and see what happens!!!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Oh, man...I'm having some serious anxiety right now. At least I think that's what it is. It feels like a huge rock has taken up residence in my chest, making it harder to breathe...and it's almost like my heart is "fluttering", for lack of a better word. I'm TOTALLY on the verge of tears if I stop and think about some stuff that is stressing me out. :-P

I think I need to get up and walk away from my desk for a few minutes. :-(

Wednesday, May 31, 2006


Wow...it's not bad...only eighty degrees in my office today...as opposed to yesterday's eighty FIVE. (<-----that was sarcasm by the way!)

Anyway, I'm glad it's Hump Day already...the week is *half* over. I love four day work weeks! (or should I say, I love 3 day weekends?) I am thankful that I have another one coming up too! My July 4th weekend is fast approaching. Daryl and I will be going to Maine on Saturday, July 1st to Monday July 3rd to see Carsa and the family! I'm very excited! I better charge up the batteries in my camera for THAT visit! Braeden is so much bigger now than the last time I saw him! Damn, babies grow too quickly!

Oh! And on another baby note. I'm psyched cuz Sarah is due TOMORROW. She looks about ready to pop...it's too cute! But I think Baby Julia is NOT quite ready to come out. Sarah said she went to the doctor yesterday and her cervix is not dilated in the LEAST yet. If the baby does not come by next Tuesday, they will be inducing Sarah on Wednesday. Her and Brian don't want the baby born next Tuesday because then the date will be 6/6/06! LOL

By the way...the above is a photo from quite a few weeks (possibly a month or two) ago of Sarah's preggo belly....

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

I don't have a clue how I'm going to make it through three and a half more hours of work. I'm ready to jump out a window! This has been such a crazy, neurotic, ANNOYING day...I want to wash my hands of it. :-P

My only hope is that one of the 3:30pm Student Clinic clients DON'T show up so that I can fill in for a FREE massage!!! I need one. B-A-D.


Thank GOD I have (another) three day weekend coming up! I plan on doing some serious house-cleaning and yardwork, in addition to having some fun squeezed in here and there, too. ;-)

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

This is some funny shit...

...I drove by a truck this morning that said the name of the company (Eastern CT Eggs) and then above the name was cute little cartoon eggs smiling and waving.

Above one of the smiley eggs was one of those speech-bubbles, like you would see in a comic strip.

This egg's bubble's message said....


"I got Layed at.....Eastern CT Eggs!!!"

Talk about a much-needed laugh on the ride in this morning!!! LOL

Monday, May 08, 2006

Had such a fun weekend! It was busy, but FUN-busy. :-)

Friday night AJ (my six year old cousin) and Daryl's friend's son, Joey (who is seven) had a sleep over at my house. They were freaking ADORABLE together...two little blond heads together, hyper till bedtime (which took place in sleeping bags, in the tent in the middle of the living room!). LOL It was like Dennis the Menace timed two. They made me laugh. Saturday we had a HUGE squirt gun fight in the yard. By the time it was over, both boys were soaked and DRIPPING (Thanks Daryl, for squirting them with the HOSE! LOL) so I had to wash and dry their clothes. I haven't laughed that hard in a while.

Saturday night we went over Sarah and Brian's and did dinner outside and let the dogs run loose in the yard. They bought a fire pit, similar to mine, so we sat around the fire pit and tried to stay warm. It was CHILLY AS HELL Saturday night! I gave up drinking the homemade wine I had (that one of Daryl's customers had given him...VERY yummy) and moved onto hot chocolate, with Preggo Sarah. :-)

Sunday started out with a Starbucks and Home Depot run then cracking down to do some SERIOUS yardwork. Once I started yanking out the roots from the horrible bushes that Daryl had chopped down previously, I felt like freaking She-Ra, Princess of Power! LOL Some of the roots though were just TOO MUCH to do by hand, so I had to rely on digging it out with the shovel. Daisy was ALL up in my business, of course, trying to dig right alongside me. Her fur and paws were COVERED with soil, and she kept trying to pull out the roots! It was hilarious. We fenced in the section of yard that led out to the street so now the pups can run free in the yard! I'm MOST excited about that. No more leashes in the backyard! Anway, we had to make ANOTHER Home Depot run to get more 30-gallon refuse bags. I literally must have filled between 10-15 just yesterday alone and I still have so much more to do! But what a sense of satisfaction Daryl and I both had after finishing what we did. He sprinkled some more grass seed down on the dirt patches...my yard is really shaping up!! I'll post pics soon....

Friday, May 05, 2006

Where DOES the time go?? I just can not believe it has been four years (TODAY) since Dad died.

I remember the moment just like it happened yesterday. The house was full of people and Mom and I were in the bedroom. Daddy was in bed, with his new body pillows that Uncle Kenny had bought to prop him up, when he could no longer hold HIMSELF up. Dad's arms were speckly looking...I remember that clear as day...and I knew it was the "moment of truth". I had just read a book on dying and read all about those spots that appear on a person's skin when s/he is dying. They were a purplish-red color. I forgot what they are actually called.

His skin was cold and clammy and I remember I specifically wanted to feel his feet. Maybe becuz for the past few months I had been Dad's favorite foot-massager. I had become quite accustomed to the texture and contour of his feet by that point. The Smith-feet that I shared. The only difference between his and my feet, though, was that Dad's second toe on each foot was longer than his big toe. And, I remember how he especially liked the pressure of my thumbs on the balls of his feet. Funny, how you remember stuff like this, four years later.

Anyway, I lifted the comforer and touched his feet. I dont think I've ever felt such cold skin before. I covered them back up, tucked the comforter around their coldness, like ice. Heard the constant pumping in-and-out whir of the oxygen machine, as it pumped air into Dad's cancerous lungs. Each intake of his breath sounded watery...like a man who'd inhaled too much of the ocean during a swim. It hurt me inside to hear that sound. Dad was "drowning".

I also remember Mom, at that moment. She was crying...all her months and months of holding back, and the dam had finally broken free. Her tears fell on Dad's blankets, on his pillows. He was struggling to keep his eyes open, trained on his wife's sorrowful gaze. It was a moment that I will never, ever forget. A moment that still breaks my heart.

I leaned over, close to his hear, and murmured that I would take care of Mommy for him. That he didn't have to worry. Inside, I felt dead. My pain felt numbed, like I'd taken a shot of Novacaine before a big feeling. My tears were locked up inside my eyes, trapped. I wanted to break down and let them go; I hoped it would feel more "real" to me to feel those tears on my cheeks....

Anyway, Daddy's passing was as peaceful as it could have been under the circumstances. He sucked in his last breath of air...exhaled his life in one short burst. And his eyes bore glassily up at the ceiling.

I laid my head on his arm, my mom's head on his chest, and breathed in his scent....

.....I wish I could still smell him.
Color of Obscurity

Author: ME


Crunching over crisp autumn colors,

Burnt ginger, Fiery crimson and Pale lemon yellow,

I weep for the loss of his Life.

The stone before me is cold and gray;

the pale granite embedded deeply,

with clear-cut letters and numbers,

December 6, 1950- May 5, 2002,

to commemorate an Existence

And the untimely passing.


Deepening twilight casts shadows across my face,

Disguising my tears in

an oily and slick obscurity.

I pray for the release from the Bitterness

and it’s overwhelming taste on my tongue.

It permeates my body with an

Endless blistering scarlet fury.


I want to let go of this scorching, blackened pain,

And peel it free like layers of damaged skin.

I want to be allowed to grieve copiously,

Emotions now fresh and new

like the sapphire promise

of Morning’s first light.



REST IN PEACE, DADDY....I CARRY YOU IN MY HEART FOREVER...

Monday, May 01, 2006


Me and the boy...LOVE him! :-)

Monday, April 24, 2006

Feeling very, very bummed today (to say the least).

ANOTHER one of my fellow coworkers was "let go" today. First it was my boss Rick a couple of months ago, and now it's my friend, Andrea (who did marketing).

I'm sad for them. :-(

But also, I'm feeling very small and insignifcant and UNIMPORTANT. Like I could be let go at any time MYSELF! I've only been with the company for about two years but Rick was here 10 years and Andrea for 7 years.

It makes you feel so unsettled, insecure, afraid...job security is not what I thought it was. WHAT job security?

Maybe I should start working on my resume...so at least I feel like I'm not just hanging in space, at the mercy of the big company "SHOE", waiting for it to potentially drop on ME, you know? :-(

Tuesday, April 18, 2006



Look at how cute little Braeden is! (Carsa's son). He is seventeen months old and SOO damn adorable! I can't wait to go visit them...Daryl and I are going to take a nice long weekend and go see them in Maine. :-)

Monday, April 17, 2006

Happy (Belated) Easter everyone!

I had a good day. Although I'm exhausted from all the cleaning, cooking and baking I did this weekend!

I hope you all had a good visit from the Easter bunny!!!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Can someone please tell me why in the HELL it's not Friday yet?!?!? *SIGH*

Monday, April 10, 2006

I had a fun weekend! Went to Yankee Candle Factory in Deerfield, MASS with Daryl and Mini Me on Saturday. We left early so after visiting the "Scenter of the World" LOL we drove up to see Daryl's family's land in New Hampshire. I'm dying to go camping so maybe sometime SOON we can go camp there! Although me going potty in a hole in the woods...that could be interesting. And no showers? Hmmm...does that mean i won't need my blow dryer either? LOL

Anyway, watched some of my favorite movies this weekend: Scarface and Carlito's Way. I wish I owned the Godfathers too...I love the mobster movies. :-) We made chili cheese hot dogs so I stuffed my face AND I had some white chocolate martinis. Between Saturday and Sunday, I killed both the white chocolate and regular chocolate bottles of Godiva I just bought! LOL Yummy.

And now...it's Monday. Ugh. I'm SO not motivated to work today...

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

What the *&$#% is up with this snow???? It was just seventy degrees last week!!!

GRRRRRRRR!!!!! I'm so ready for winter weather to be OVER!

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Me and Dad a year or two before he passed away....
Here's Dracula (a.k.a. Dad)!


Some photots of my Dad that I just scanned at work...wasn't he a cutie???? :-)

This first one is from his 30th birthday (obviously! LOL) and the second one is Dad and I one Christmas morning....


Monday, April 03, 2006

So, my friend Sandy created a Memorial Website for her son Joey who was just killed in a car accident in early March and it was very sweet. I decided to create one for me Dad, even though he's been gone for almost four years now. With Dad's anniversary coming up, I STILL can't believe all this time has gone by without him here. His absence defintiely leaves a hole in my heart...


http://richard-smitty-smith.memory-of.com/about.aspx

Friday, March 24, 2006

You Are Corona

You don't drink for the love of beer. You drink to get drunk.
You prefer a very light, very smooth beer. A beer that's hardly a beer at all.
And while you make not like the taste of beer, you like the feeling of being drunk.
You drink early and often. Sometimes with friends. Sometimes alone. All the party needs is you!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006


The sea gulls in Florida were BRUTAL...this particular little critter was especially feisty. He circled our blanket and literally attaked or chased away any other birds that tried to come near!




Tuesday, March 21, 2006

*SIGH*

I absolutely positively hate wakes and funerals...they are so emotionally draining. My friend Sandy's 18 year old son, Joey, was killed in a car accident last Wednesday night. Today was the funeral and last night was the wake. But between last Thursday when I found out and today, I feel like I've been crying nonstop.

Poor Sandy. How do you go on after losing your child? I can't imagine how it must feel, like your insides being torn out, to lose the child you gave birth to. I've been so upset for her and so upset for Joey whose life was cut too short.

Sandy has a list that Joey wrote...12 things he is grateful for. The number one item on his list??

LIFE.





*SIGH*

Thursday, March 09, 2006

In about twelve hours, I'll be on a plane headed to Florida...my LONG-AWAITED vacation is finally here! I need a break from a lot of stress I've been dealing w/lately and I know this is JUST the "medicine" I need. :-) I also can't wait to wear shorts and a bathing suit...and no damn winter coat!!!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Your Stripper Song Is

Super Freak by Rick James

"That girl is pretty wild now
The girl's a super freak
The kind of girl you read about
In new-wave magazine"

Freaky? Yes. But you're also pretty darn funny.


Oh my GOD this is so me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.
Aaaahhhhh...soon enough, April, soon enough....

(And is this not the funniest turtle ever? LOL)
Oh my GOD, can today go any SLOWER???

Two (and less than a half) more work days left until...FLORIDA!!! I'm so impatient I can't stand it. I've been so on edge lately and I really, truely need a break. I think I'm most looking forward to endless hours of vegging on the sandy and warm Florida beaches. I know Stacey is just as anxious as I am.

This vacation will be good for us. After a crazy stressful and emotional year, we deserve to have a break! I think tonight I'm going to give myself a pedicure, paint my toes a nice tropical coral-y color, and maybe start putting together the clothes I'm going to bring. Yesssssss....that's my plan, Stan.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Boredom at work SUCKS. One of the admissions reps just buzzed my desk and jokingly told me I should answer the phone in different accents each time...so I practiced a couple on her. It's safe to say I can do a Scottish rendition of it, or a Middle Eastern accent. Damn, I need more accents.

Is it 3:30pm yet? That's when I'm getting my massage! WOO HOO!!!
Busy weekend ahead! Going out tonight to celebrate Daryl's big 3-0th birthday (which is actually on Monday). This means I'll be meeting the MAJORITY of his friends. A little nervous about that. Meeting new people is always a little nerve-wracking! Thankfully, Stacey is coming out too so there will be SOMEONE I already know. :-)

And then TOMORROW, Daryl and I are going to head out to upper state NY to spend the night over his mom's. This is my first time meeting HER. I'm SUPER nervous about that! She used to be a cop so I hope she's not scary! LOL Besides that, meeting any parents of your new beau can be scary!!!!!

Sunday we'll come home and I hope to just relax in the evening, curl up on the couch under my afghan with the pooches, and watch a good movie with D. Ahhhhhh.....

Monday, February 27, 2006



Awwww....

Thursday, February 23, 2006





Cute puppy dog pictures....

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Your Life Path Number is 11

Your purpose in life is to inspire others

Your amazing energy draws people to you, and you give them great insight in return.
You hold a great amount of power over others, without even trying.
You have the makings of an inventor, artist, religious leader, or prophet.

In love, you are sensitive and passionate. You connect with your partner on a very deep level.

You have great abilities, but you are often way too critical of yourself.
You don't fit in - and instead of celebrating your differences, you dwell on them.
You have high expectations of yourself. But sometimes you set them too high and don't achieve anything.
A Granny Smith apple + Cabot's Seriously sharp cheddar cheese = the best fucking snack EVER

YUM.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


Meet my new boy, Tucker! Isn't he a sweetie?? I wanna squish his little face everytime I see him! And he has been such a good boy!! Only nine weeks old and already out-door potty trained! He either scratches at the back door or gives us his over-the-shoulder look and whine when he has to go! It's so awesome cuz I've been having such a hard time out-door potty training Daisy (that stubborn little biatch!) but I think once she continues to see Tucker do it, it'll click in her head! I hope they only learn good habits from each other (and not the bad! LOL).

Wish me luck in the puppy-training!!! :-)

Friday, February 17, 2006

Oh God...I have a horrible, horrible hangover head ache...I think I should just buy stock in Advil until it goes away. :-P

WHY did I drink so much last night? It was those damn Jager Girls! First it was the orange leis, then the Jager teeshirts...Stace and I got sucked in SO easily! And damnit, Daryl just kept buying them for us!

Damn that Daryl and his cute-ass dimples! THOSE suck me in too. LOL

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out

Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking

What turns you off: fighting and conflict

Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love
Happy Heart Day!!!!

I know that most people feel that Valentine's Day is such a commerical-ly Hallmark-ish holiday...and part of me DOES agree with that...but the other part of me, the the romantic, sappy, mushy part, LOVES it. :-)

Granted I have a boyfriend right now so that makes it more exciting (cuz lord knows when I'm single on V-Day I do have a tendency to get a little bitter LOL) but I also love showing my friends and family that I care for them! I stopped last minute this morning to get all my friends a card and some candy and gave some away at work. And it was so awesome to get the happy smiles I got! It's amazing how such a little gesture can make someone's day.

So, on that note, I wish you all lots of LOVE and happiness in 2006. Happy Valentine's Day! xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

Friday, February 03, 2006

Colonoscopy...have you ever had one? If not, you probably won't want to! :-P

Mine is scheduled for Monday and I am NOT looking forward to being probed up the ass...NOR am I looking forward to the "bowel preparation". And I will spare you the details of THAT. LOL

Unfortunately though, Colorectal Cancer is in my family. Dad died of it four years ago this May, and when it's in your family, you just can't mess around. I'd MUCH rather be safe than sorry!!!!

So, wish me luck! Sunday is a fasting day...me, with barely no food (other than liquids all day)!?!? How will I do it? LOL

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

37 more days to go! The countdown to Florida is ON!

Okay, so no, I'm not all gung-ho just to go to Florida (been there, done that). I'm just happy becuz it's a VACATION. I'll be able to be off work for a week (and a day!) and be AWAY. I seriously need to get away. I've been ready to lose my mind lately!

Ugh, on a sadder note though...37 days till I put on a bathing suit.

Houston, we have a problem!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

I've been having trouble sleeping lately and I'm not sure why. It could be that money-related stress is keeping me from dropping off into sleepytown! Also, the new beau has been sleeping over a lot so it's entirely possible that my body is just readjusting to sleeping next to someone again. Who knows.

OR, my other thought is that I'm going stir-crazy cuz I'm so damn sick of winter!!! GOD, I can't wait for my vacation in March!!!

Friday, January 20, 2006

Michele must be rubbing off on me already..her and her kooky dreams! Cuz now I'M having weird dreams!!

Although last night's dream was just down-right SCARY. I swear, I was like the star in my own slasher film. It involved blood and guts, being chased, murders, a big scary haunted house, and....*GULP*...a HUGE (like the size of a basketball) spider! I'm going to be sick just thinking of that spider!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 19, 2006



The Four Ho's

(how the hell do you write the plural form of HO? LOL)

And me and Jess....