I am not having a good day at all. Ugh.
I've been having anxiety since yesterday early afternoon so this is two days in a row that I had to do what I hate...take a pill. I usually try to hold off as long as I can but that little pill seems to tame the beast in my chest that makes it difficult to breathe. But of course, it also makes me tired.
SO not only am I dragging ass mentally and emotionally today, but now physically as well.
I'm not sure what specifically it is...I think I have a case of the holiday blues. Usually by this time each year I have LONG since finished and wrapped my Christmas shopping, baked everything, and am patiently waiting the holiday itself. This year, however, is nothing like that.
I have not even BEGUN my shopping, and we're only buying for limited people this year due to very low funds caused by paying for our wedding among other things (D and I are buying small for each other, and also need to get something for our Mom's and our grandparents. That's IT.) so I know that is bringing me down. What makes Christmas--for me--so much fun is being able to give, and I thoroughly enjoy the hunt to pick out THE perfect gift for ALL my family and friends but this year it's not to be. I'm almost dreading the day. Throw into the mix that my bank is still screwing shit up on me in my checking account and my job has picked up the pace (this is my busy-crazy-insane time for the next 2-3 months) and that makes April a very down girl.
So, what's a girl to do? I try to keep the important things in mind. I'm healthy, I have a roof over my head, I have great people in my life...but I think everyone just has one of those down days where NOTHING seems to go your way. TODAY is my day.
And damn it, my pen just ran out of ink. *SIGH*