Today is way better than yesterday.
While I still have (very) mild cramps and I'm still (extremely) disappointed, my recently crushed spirit seems to have gotten a little bit of a recharge this afternoon.
I've got two shots of espresso (from an iced caramel macchiatto. The Starbucks barista must have seen the forlorn look on my face cuz she offered me a free shot of espresso in my drink!) coursing eagerly through my system, deliciously pretty hot pink toenails from my self-care pedicure a few minutes ago, plans with my bestest girly, April #2, to hang out tonight while Big D is working and we will chil, bitch about life and eat pizza to our heart's content...AND an appointment with my favorite massage therapist, my good friend Sarah, next week.
I'm making it ALL about self-care and happiness and healthiness from here on out. I can't guarantee that I won't have my moments of "poor me" and "why??" in the future but I hope to make them less and less. I have to start taking better care of myself. And by taking care of myself I mean my body, mind and spirit. Not just my body. The body is the "easy" part.
Thank you all so, so much for your fabulous and much-needed words of wisdom. You have no idea how much they have helped to boost my mood today. (along with this kick-ass pedicure)
Tonight I plan on giving Big D a couple of extra squeezes for his sweet and caring self the past few nights. Just a look from his understanding warm brown eyes has been enough sometimes, and yet he's given me so much more than that, even though he too was disappointed with the turn of events. He's made it all about me the past two nights, about what I want to eat for dinner, what I want to watch on the telly...it's those simple things...but they helped make it so much more bearable and I'm grateful for that! Being loved totally rocks.