The pregnancy hormones are kickin' into full swing.
I cry ALL. THE. TIME.
I cry over Baby Story on TLC (that's a given for preggos, right?). I cry over a TV show on baby orangutan orphans whose parents were slaughtered (okay, I guess that makes sense. Monkey BABIES). I cry over that silly Luvs diapers commercial (come on, you know the one...with those creepy little cartoon babies dancing around at a baby woodstock) becuz my son dances his little heart out every time it comes on...and realizing that his life as an only child will be very short-lived. I cry over the guilt that I won't be able to give him as much attention and love as I'm used to, when the new baby is here. I know we'll adjust, and that he'll be JUST fine, but I worry nonetheless.
And this pregnancy has certainly been different than my last! Heh. Let's see, chasing after a super hyper and into-everything 14 month old while still having to keep up on the laundry, the dishes (that's a losing battle, let me tell you), keeping my house from looking like an episode of Hoarders all while battling the typical PG symptoms and fatigue that strikes without warning. I am in the second trimester now, so I admit to having a bit more energy, but still some days are harder than others. I laugh out loud when I think back to being pregnant with Hunter and and how "hard" I thought it was, as I stole a nap on my hour long lunch break at work, working full time OR came home from work and passed out on the couch. And now? I work part time at my job, full-time as a Mommy and wife and my discomfort often takes a back burner while I'm taking care of the house, cleaning up after dinner (thankfully Daryl has been doing most of the cooking), cleaning up/bathing Hunter and getting him ready for bed, and then dealing with him waking up every night (which he does when sick/teething).
I've been sick approximately the past three weeks with what I believe started out as a cold but evolved into a virus. Runny/stuffy nose and green snot, scratchy throat and coughing all night long, pounding headache on and off. And a week ago, I realized my eyes were looking VERY scary...like I'd been hitting the bottle a bit too hard. Red, veiny, bloodshot and I'd wake up in the morning with at least one crusted shut. Then I noticed the fabulous white pus oozing out of the inside corners. Oh yes, I'd developed a viral (non contagious) Pink Eye, from being sick. FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC.
Well, four days of prescription eye drops and the Pink Eye is better. But the coughing? Not so much. And basically all I'm relying on is cough drops and plain ol' Robitussin, neither of which is cutting it. And seriously the worst part? I have NO BLADDER CONTROL anymore...thanks to Hunter! Every single time I cough (or sneeze) especially hard, I'm leaking urine. This makes for MORE damn laundry to do, which pisses me off. And when the coughing is REALLY bad, I put a small towel under in my bed, just in case. Sexy, right?
And while the random puking/dry heaving seems to have died down, I can't say it's completely over. The puking maybe, but when I cough too hard I immediately start gagging and thought I was gonna puke in the car on the way home from work on Thursday. Really? I thought this would be over by now! So I can't help but laugh at myself, and how naive I was the first time around. But taking care of Hunter does keep me on my toes and keeps me from focusing too much on any of the discomfort. It's harder on my upper back (which didnt' bother me during my pregnancy with him, just my lower back) with constantly having to hoist and lift this almost 30 pounder around, and I'm sure it will only get worse as I gain more weight and belly gets bigger. I gotta start doing some squats and back exercises to strengthen up in prepartion! ;-) And it's true what they say, no two pregnancies are the same!!