Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year's Eve!

Tonight we have NO plans other than chilling out at home and eating some yummy apps for dinner. Staying off the roads and away from the crazy, drunk drivers. Plus I'm just too damn tired to make it till midnight. I'm normally in bed BY ten o'clock. And I'm perfectly content to ring in the new year on a quiet--or sleeping!--note. Does that mean I'm an "old" 34-year-old now? No more wild parties, up all night? ;-) (Ok, sorry for the weird/lack of spacing in this post. My damn laptop is giving me issues.) Anyway, I went to my OBGYN check-up yesterday and all is good and on track! I only gained about 2 lbs, despite the fact that I failed my first 1-hour glucose test. Well, I shouldn't say "failed"...the glucose level was "slightly elevated" as the nurse put it. 163. So not necessarily that I have Gestational Diabetes. But I'm NOT looking forward to the damn 3-hour test. It means I have to have my Mom come over at the butt-crack of dawn and then go sit in the lab, on an EMPTY STOMACH, and get poked and prodded during those three hours. Ugh! But I'm sure it will all be fine, in the end. Also, my fundus (pretty much this is the measurement of my big 'ol belly!) is measuring at about 30 weeks which is fine considering tomorrow I'll be exactly 29 weeks! So physically, Avery and I are doing good (she is SUPER active and I love all her movements)! However, mentally? I'm a mess lately. LOTS going on in our life, not all of it good, but aiming to make it better. So that coupled with the hormonal changes, makes me very emotional at the drop of a hat. I WILL NOT miss THAT part of pregnancy, no sirreee! Daryl and I are just really looking forward to meeting our little girl and completing our family. Eleven more weeks (approx.) and counting! And we are looking forward to some positive changes in our life in the New bring it on, 2011~!!!!

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I can't say enough good things about Christmas this year!

Despite some of the stresses in our lives (mainly FINANCIAL, ugh!), it turned out to be a magical day.

First there was Christmas Eve which was only MILDLY painful with Daryl's dad and grandma. We went to dinner and then did our gift exchange and were home relatively early. Big D put his Daddy duties to the test when it was time to put together one of Hunter's new toys.
Seeing the utter amazement on my son's face when he first walked out into the living room, Christmas morning, and spotted his (most favorite!) present--his new kitchen--was the best gift I could have received all day (well, beside the beautiful family birthstone charms Big D got for my bracelet.... .....and the awesome Cuisinart Keurig coffee maker my MIL and step-FIL gave us, LOL)!This was Hunter's face (he was squatting to grab a remote off the floor) JUST as he saw his kitchen!! Then that was it! He moved too fast across the room for Daryl to get another shot of his cute expression. LOL

I also got Daryl two items he REEEEEALLY wanted..a new hunting knife and some tip-ups for ice fishing. And his smile was as big as Hunter's.

Even Tucker got in on the action...with his new bone!The three of us had our quiet early morning family time opening gifts, drinking coffee and eating Christmas cookies (there was more powdered sugar on my living room carpet and on Hunter's jammies than in his belly!). Then a while later my MIL and step-FIL, who are in town for the holiday, came by and the presents started all over again! Hunter's OTHER favorite gift was the cool trike his Grammie and Gpa got him. At first, Hunter couldn't even wait for Gpa to put his trike TOGETHER before he started hopping on!We had bagels for breakfast and just relaxed and after I finally got around to getting dressed, a little while later my Mom and her bf, John, arrived to join in the festive fun!
Hunter's favorite gift from his Nana was, hands-down, the shopping cart. He has been wheeling it ALL OVER the living room and kitchen since then, filling it up, then dumping it out!
This little man was certainly blessed and very spoiled yesterday!
My brother arrived and then we all sat down to dinner: ham, mashed potatoes, corn, broccoli/carrot mix and lasagna. Kept it pretty low-key and I didn't even have time to clean the kitchen before family arrived! No nice tablecloth, no pretty table set-up or candles going...and seriously it was THE most relaxed and yummy dinner! I definitely didn't have time to make my homemade cheesecake beforehand but the store bought sufficed for one complained, that's for sure!

And now today, the impending snow we are going to be getting put a damper on more holiday fun (two family parties but only ONE of which I'm sad about missing). However, SNOW, people!!! I'm so psyched! I've got Hunter's brand new snow pants (from his Grammie and Gpa) all set and ready to go and on the way home from fixing his grandparents boiler this morning, Daryl is going to pick him up some snow boots. The ONLY reason I need to run out today is a couple basic necessities we are unfortunately out of (milk!) but that's okay. After that, we're going to cozy up indoors with a movie and each other and I can't wait!

I hope you all had a fabulous Christmas holiday!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

I've had a busy past week!

For one thing, my very best friend April had her baby last Tuesday! Matthew was born December 7th (the day after his grandfather's birthday and the day BEFORE his grandmother's, how funny is that?) weighing in at 8 lbs. 11 oz. and 20 inches long! He was almost the EXACT same size as Hunter, same weight but only off by one half inch. Hunter was 19 1/2 inches at birth.

I got to go visit them at the hospital and OH did it feel good holding a newborn again! And it was nice to feel helpful to April and her hubby, when they had questions for me about breastfeeding, or baby's gas, etc. I'm really looking forward to this little boy growing up and playing with Hunter and Avery!

This past Sunday marked my (ugh!) 34th birthday and man, did my husband do GOOD this year! First he installed a car starter in my car and for that I will be eternally has gotten damn COLD lately! And then he also got me two charms for my Pandora bracelet, one of which he gave me days before my birthday when I was having such a hard time (and missing my Dad so, so much). It is a dangling heart with wings.

Then Saturday night we went out to dinner with another couple we are good friends with. Mindy's birthday was Saturday and mine was Sunday, so it was the perfect occasion for the four of us to go out, minus the kids, and have some fun. My mom and her boyfriend watched the baby boy, and Daryl and I discussed how it was time to really look into getting a babysitter so we can go out sometimes (without me feeling like I'm burdening my mom, since she already watches Hunter four days a week for about 4-5 hours).We went to a place that used to be called Pettibone's Tavern (now renamed Abigail's)...and it is a business and building rich in history! It has been around long before the Civil War (and it had even been featured on GhostHunter's one episode!!) The food was utterly AH-MAZING and I ate to my heart's content. I indulged in one glass of merlot (my second glass of wine this pregnancy...and SO worth the wait) and for an appetizer had this delicious stuffed and baked zucchini. To die for! And then for dinner I had Rigatoni A La Vodka with sausage and chicken in it...again, delicious. Dessert was decaf coffee and a slice of pumpkin cheesecake (which sadly, I could not finish it all, but I gave it my valiant effort). Then on the way home we took kind of a detour and checked out some Christmas lights and just talked. I had a blast!
On Sunday Daryl ran out and got me a Starbucks latte for my birthday, and Panera bagels. I spent the morning lounging and wrapping Christmas gifts during Hunter's nap, then later on I baked my little heart out and got a jump start on the Christmas cookies I give out each year.
At one point, Big D asked me if he did good this year...and I told him he did GREAT. Best birthday ever with my family and friends. I couldn't ask for anything more!
Let's see, Hunter is doing good. He's still teething (when ISN'T he??) but I know we're getting close to being done. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel! He's talking a LOT more now and parroting everything we say (awesome, pretty, idiot---yup, Mom and Dad need to remember to watch what we're saying in front of the little stinker now!) and while probably only me, Daryl, and my Mom would understand him (pretty sounds like "geety") I am still in awe as his vocabulary grows! He also knows how to open up a present all on his own it's ON for Christmas! My friend Erin stopped by yesterday with a gift for Hunter and she went and put it under the tree. Well, that silly boy ran right over, picked it up and ran to center of the room where he proceeded to tear into it, no invitation needed!

On the pregnancy front, it's hard to believe...we're under 100 days now left!!! Yikes! And what a difference this time around in the preparation front. No nursery to work on, no furniture to order. Little Avery will be in our room for a while in the bassinet, after she's born, and when I feel it's time to move her, she's going to share Hunter's room with him for now. Until least until we have more time and money to start working on bedroom situations (or move! LOL). It's not my ideal set-up for the two babies to have to share a room, but we'll make it work! I've slowly started washing a few baby clothes here and there, hand-me-downs of Hunter's that are unisex enough, some hand-me-downs from my friend Sarah's two girls, and also a few cute sleepers and onesies that both Avery's Nana and Grammie have picked up for her already. I still have another friend who said she has a BOATLOAD of girl clothes to give me so that will keep me busy once she gets it to me!

It's definitely less stressful this time around, and I'm enjoying the process more. We have mostly all the major necessities for a newborn (pack n play, bassinet, baby blankets, burp cloths, etc., etc.) and unlike with Hunter where I had to do a lot of waiting (waiting for the nursery to be finished, waiting for the baby shower to organize the stuff), this time around I'm doing it at my leisure (leisure? ha, what's that?).

And most importantly? I'm trying to enjoy every little second of my family of three, while we still ARE a family of three. Not that we aren't looking forward whole-heartedly to becoming a family of four, but I am cherishing all the time I get to spend with Hunter playing with him, hugging him, kissing him and giving him one-on-one time cuz i know it will change drastically when Avery is here. And trying to spend time with my husband as well, enjoying the simple quiet after Hunter is in bed and we are just watching TV together. I'd love to maybe get out another night or two before March, with just Big D, and spend some time together.
On the ME-front, I'm feeling much better this week. I definitely do think last week's feeling so sick (and exhausted) was very much emotional, and anxiety. Daryl was so good to me the whole week no matter HOW bitchy or crazy I sounded at times and I really thank him for being so patient with me. There was one night after I yelled at all three of them, that I felt bad so I went into the bedroom where Daryl and Hunter where goofing around on our bed and I called up the dog, Tucker, and I apologized to everyone for being so mean. I'm trying to take better care of myself, I'm trying to eat better and I am currently trying to make plans for a girls-night with one of my friends. I'm on the right path, people! I know the anxiety won't disappear overnight, but it's a start.

So that's that! Sorry these blog posts are so few and far between but our lap top battery is shot and can only be used while plugged in, and with working and Christmas preparation...time is sparse! I hope you all are doing well!

Friday, December 10, 2010

I had a rough week. But I'm happy to say it seems to be ending on a lighter note.

Just lots going on, lots of life stress, money stress, baby stress, toddler stress, friend stress...and not a great system for me to work through it all when I'm so hormonal and tired and blah.

Tuesday morning I stood in the shower, fighting back the tears as the water pounded down on me, feeling so exhausted and fatigued I just wanted to cry my heart out. I know I'm pregnant, and also working part time and chasing after a toddler and trying to keep our house from turning into a scene out of Hoarder's, but this fatigue was different. It just felt bone-weary, like my limbs were heavy and leadened. It wasn't simply a matter of being sleepy-tired, ya know? Anyway, I got out of the shower and proceeded to blow dry my hair and I was shaking like a leaf, heart racing, feeling a tightness in my chest a little similar to either anxiety or when I drink too much caffeine. I lifted my arm up above my head holding the blow dryer and had to keep lowering it back down, it felt like lifting a lead weight. I sat down on the side of the tub a couple of times to try to catch my breath, sweating, and finally giving in to tears.

I finally called my boss and told her I wasn't coming in and then i called my OBGYN to see if this warranted a visit or if I should just suffer through it. I admitted to the nurse I did have ea lot of sugar the past two days so maybe that was the reason? She said it could be sugar shock, or maybe I was anemic, but obviously she couldn't say over the phone. I was not hungry but figured shaking like that I should probably eat. So after the nurse told me they couldn't squeeze me in till 3:45pm (it was 11am) and that if I felt worse, to not be afraid to go to the ER, I went out and to the kitchen and had a granny smith apple and some cheddar cheese. Then I sat my hiney on the couch and even after getting Hunter up from his nap, I let him play on the floor while I laid back and tried to relax and slow down my pounding heart.

Of COURSE by about 3pm I finally started to feel better and by the time we made it to the doctor i was feeling much better, albeit STILL utterly exhausted. The doctor had me do bloodwork for mono, Lyme and something else...NONE Of which I figured was my problem. I personally think it could have been an anxiety attack. I've never been anemic before so I have no idea what that feels like, and I have nothing to base it on. So all week I've been tired, cranky, irritable, crying nonstop and snapping the heads off of anyone who got in my way: Daryl, my Mom, Hunter (although I tried to have MUCH more patience with him) and Tucker (our doggie).

But I'm happy to say as of today, Friday, I'm feeling MUCH BETTER! Not quite as tired, not quite as overwhelmed (although don't get me wrong, the stressors in my life have not gone anywhere) and not quite as MEAN to my family. Heh heh. Even Daryl said he noticed a difference last night, cuz he's been trying to get me to calm down and relax ALL WEEK.

So I spoke to a patient at my work who I have a very friendly relationship and she reminded me of something that I think I now often forget about it:

To take care of myself.

I admitted it is hard, once you've donned the cap of wife and mother, to make yourself a priority anymore. And I'm not even talking about just having a social life (which I no longer have) but I am not eating as well as I should be and I am very upset with myself cuz not only is that not benefiting me but I worry about Avery too. I have a hard time getting in enough fruits and veggies and healthy food.

And I don't ever give myself a BREAK. It's go, go, go all the time vacuuming, doing laundry, washing dishes, feeding and bathing Hunter, running to work, back home, eat dinner, checking up on Daryl's day and asking him if he took his diabetes meds (yes, I know he's my hubby and not my child, but I worry SOOOOO much about his health), clean up the dinner mess and then rinse and repeat all the housework before falling exhausted into bed. I can't even remember the last time I've read a BOOK, something I never thought I'd give up. I cry a LOT, feeling overwhelmed by it all. When does it get easier? Is it just the pregnancy hormones exacerbating everything?

I'm just so...very...tired. And I know that's not gonna get any better once a newborn is thrown into the mix but I just have to start making myself a priority again too!

WHY is this so hard to do??

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

Our Thanksgiving weekend was a blast! Very busy (not to mention exhausting...see Tucker yawning so hugely in the pic???), but full of family and lots of fun.

Wednesday I was off from work so while Hunter stayed home with his Nana, I went to get my hair cut (it was LOOOONG overdue) then made a quick last minute stop at the grocery store to get the ingredients for my cheesecake. When I got home, my sweet Mom had already started making the stuffing for me, and also peeled all the onions for creamed onions. So while she did that, I was able to start my broccoli cheese casserole. I was determined to get as much made ahead of time as I could, so that way I wasn't losing my marbles Thursday. Then when Hunter went down for his afternoon nap, I tackled my cheesecake! It was a labor of love, that's for sure. But I'm happy to say it was WELL worth it and now I have "orders" in for cheesecake on Christmas, too!

Thursday I was up early (as I am every day!) and while Daryl was out hunting, Hunter and I had cinnamon buns for breakfast (my Thanksgiving morning tradition). Usually I watch the parade while having coffee and cinnamon buns but this year? I had to immediately dive into peeling and cutting the potatoes and getting the turkey in the oven. And of course Daryl was LATE coming home (he gavce his uncle a ride, and his uncle was almost an hour an a half later than he was supposed showing back up at the truck despite the fact Daryl had told him he needed to be home early to lend me a hand) so basically I did EVERYTHING. Cleared off and set the table, bathed Hunter and myself, vacuuming literally five minutes before the first family started to arrive! My Mom and her boyfriend, Daryl's Dad and his girlfriend, and his grandma all came over. Despite how tired I was, and how much work was done, the dinner came out AWESOME. I seriously think this was my best turkey yet (and I've been making Thanksgiving dinner myself for about ten-ish years now).

Black Friday I was up and out early, picking my Mom up at 5:30am and heading to IHOP to get breakfast and coffee before starting our shopping. I have to say I got the best deals (and most stuff) at Kohl's! I was very excited! We only did about three stores cuz I was getting very tired from walking/standing and HUNGRY. And I still had a busy day ahead of me. After dropping mom off and having lunch at home with Daryl and the baby, we went to visit his Mom and Stepdad who had arrived that morning in town for a visit. They were staying at Daryl's grandparents so we visited a while, then the five of us headed to Charlie Brown's Christmas Tree Farm to pick out our tree! Hunter had an absolute blast running through the farm (or riding on his G-pa's shoulders!) and kept pointing and touching the tree and saying "Tree! Ooh!" So stinkin' cute. After about an hour (I'm VERY particular when it comes to tree picking) we loaded up and headed back to the grandparents for more visiting and yummy pizza for dinner! Poor Hunter was exhausted from only one short nap (he normally takes two decent ones) and was VERY cranky and it was almost past his bedtime so we called it a night. While everyone else was in bed, I put the lights on the tree, the tree skirt and the ribbon and decided to wait on the ornaments till the next day when I wasn't so tired.

Saturday morning I turned the white lights on and then lead Hunter out to the living room. At first he didn't see the tree cuz he was too busy realizing I"d moved the furniture around, including his toys. But all of a sudden his eyes lit up in awe and a huge smile spread across his face and he ran to the tree and pointed his finger to a branch. I'm still mad at myself for not having a camera ready cuz it was such a classic moment! But I made up for it later and took some pics. I finished decorating the tree, while he napped then we headed out again for some family fun, this time at Daryl's aunt and uncles house, where all the family had gathered. Despite how cold it had gotten, the kids had a blast bouncing in their moon bounce!That would include the biggest kid of all, Big D!

After some spaghetti with homemade sauce, garlic bread, 1/2 a glass of red wine (only my second this whole pregnancy and OH MY GOD was it delicious) and a ginormous piece of canoli pie that Hunter and I split, I was ready to be rolled home and sleep.

Sunday my mother in law and step father in law, came over for some more visiting (they try to get as much in during these visits since we don't see them all as much as we'd like. They live about 3 1/2 hours away). Bagels and coffee and a movie later, and then after Hunter's morning nap, we went to Daryl's cousin's house for more visiting! Seriously, it was a JAM PACKED weekend of that. We stayed a few hours for dinner (more pizza! LOL) and Hunter had a blast playing with their almost 3 year old daughter, Aubrey. He kept bear-hugging her from behind and every time she'd run he'd happily chase after her and giggled at almost everything she said. So cute. Of course I brought the camera but was so tired and had such a stomach ache that I totally forgot to get any pics there (except for like one or two when we went outside to check out their new goats).

All in a all, a great weekend, but I was almost happy to get back to the normal "grind" and relax a bit. But Thanksgiving is definitely one of my favorite holidays!