Saturday, January 22, 2011

In all the drama that has been going on in my life lately, I feel bad that I haven't been able to update on little Avery's growth and progress in my belly!

Pregnancy is progressing along with ONE exhausted Mama at the helm. Hunter has been very clingy and needy with me lately (is it the age? He's just about 18 months now. OR maybe just from the last of his darn teeth poking through?) and OFTEN wants to be held and cuddled. I worry how Avery's arrival will affect the relationship he and I share. I will love him NO LESS, of course, but I won't be able to devote as much time to him as I do now. And that scares the crap out of me! How do/did you handle the sudden jarring change of juggling two children, when you'd become so accustomed to one?

New stretch marks are "blossoming" (ha!) what seems like daily across my stretched belly. With Hunter, I often joked that it looked like Tony the Tiger had scratched his way ACROSS my belly. And now with Avery, Daryl mentioned the other day that it looked like Freddy Kruger had raked his gloved talons DOWN the right side of my belly (Avery's favorite hang out spot is the right side).

Gotta love that Big D. LOL

The heartburn, while still here and annoying, has definitely died down in it's crazy intensity. I really FEEL for and have an empathetic appreciation for all of you who suffer from bad heartburn/reflux in general. I only get it while pregnant, and it makes me MISERABLE. The indigestion has picked up and Daryl so sweetly reminds me often how I burp like a truck driver and he can't WAIT till that part of it is over. Yeah, you and me both, buddy.

Suddenly what seems like overnight, I feel like Hunter is ten pounds heavier when I carry him. I asked Daryl about it and he assured me that it was just ME feeling that...Hunter felt no different to him. So it's DEFINITELY getting harder and harder to move around and carry things (toddlers!) the bigger I get.

We've already begun our biweekly appointments at the OBGYN. Last week's appointment, the Dr. went over the results for my 3-hour glucose test. While the results were slightly elevated (approx. 180), he said I did not have Gestational Diabetes. However, he said it wouldn't hurt to follow the diet the Diabetes Nutritionist could give me. Well, between no time with work and moving, and no babysitter, I have since decided not to go to the appointment with the nutritionist and I'm just going to make an effort on my own to cut back on the sugar. I KNOW what I'm eating that is causing the higher blood sugar level so there is no reason I can't cut it way back.

And on a great note, I'm measuring right on track! Belly was 31 inches at exactly 31 weeks (TODAY I hit 32 weeks, yikes) which is amazing to me...considering with Hunter's pregnancy I was measuring like 4-5 weeks AHEAD at this point. That's why I ended up with extra ultrasounds and worries about how big of a baby he'd be. I'm pretty convinced that my Avery girl is going to be about eight pounds, give or take (well, more give, LOL). That's my prediction! Her heartbeat sounded healthy and galloped right along at the visit, bringing a smile to my face.

Hard to believe we are getting down to the wire here. I had a moment, about 2 weeks ago, where I was driving home from work and baby girl was tumbling erratically around in my belly, like a pin ball, and I swear it's like it REALLY and TRULY hit me...we're HAVING ANOTHER BABY. I felt this momentary burst of pure PANIC wash over me and like an "OMG, what are we gonna do?" moment. Then I just started laughing. Has it really taken me this long to realize I'm going to have a second child? When I told Daryl about it, he smiled and said, "Welcome to my world."

We are thrilled about her arrival but I won't lie, I think we're both nervous about how it will affect the life the three of us have built together. I don't want to feel like I'm spread too thin and can't give enough of my time, attention and love to ANY of my family (Hunter, Avery and Daryl) so the juggling part will have to be learned, I guess. I know it will all work out though. I can't wait to become a Mommy for the second time, and the FIRST time to a sweet girl!

Avery, I've got your first pink dress ready and waiting (don't worry, I'm NOT going to be one of those Mommy's who dresses you in pink every day of your life, heh). I can't wait to hold you and kiss you and smell your skin and rub my thumb down your cheek. I can't wait to see whose nose you have (Daddy and Hunter's? Or Mommy's?) and if you are an outgoing, smiley baby like your brother or a shy little girl. I am so ready to meet you, honey!!!

4 comments:

Bekah said...

I am so excited to see this little girl! She is going to be so cute!

Melissa said...

Wow! New baby bellies all over the place. Congratulations! I love the name Avery!!

And the thought of a little pink dress just waiting for her, adorable!

Good luck!

Kat said...

That is just so exciting! You really are getting down to the wire now. Wow. Time really flies by!


And don't worry. You'll make the adjustment just fine. It all just kind of falls into place. :)

Birdee said...

I would worry about the same things with being spread too thing. I feel I can barely do it with a teen and a toddler, I cant imagine a toddler an a newborn. But I also know things just work out, and you especially can do this and will be wonderful at it. I'm so excited to cyber meet your little Avery too!
Wished I could fly down there and be your photographer (and friend =D )